I enclose myself in a golden crystalline sphere of energetic protection and allow the experience to unfold.
A great dial of symbols and images begins spinning above me. A carved circular calendar. So great is the time it encompasses that it was born before time itself. The circling dial clicks as it moves into place and I see a golden cord of light coming down through the centre into me. I see myself standing with this cord of golden light coming from far beyond my perception. I am grounded and graced with words of comfort. You are in the right time and you are in the right place. I see the golden energy as light coming down through me into the Earth beneath my feet. I am pulled to the ground with the gravity of it. I crumple into the foetal position. The golden cord connecting to me like a star piercing my umbilicus.
I see great beings of light standing over me as if I am in the womb and they speak to me. A membrane of fabric and light between me and them but they are so close I could nearly touch them. My body stretches and arks as energy. I see and feel what it was like to fold my energy body and consciousness around the consciousness of my unborn son. One who was to visit the Earth but never to remain here in his own body. For the entirety of his visit we shared one body. My consciousness wrapped around his, shielding him and protecting him. He stands now as one of these brilliant light beings looking down on me lovingly. I am told that I did not give birth to him but he gave birth to me. The alchemy and dilution of our two conscious minds melding and blending as we housed one body. That I was forever changed and have been given sight that I might not otherwise have accessed on my own. They tell me that we have done this many times before. In different ways we have sought to create a connection to spirit that otherwise may not have penetrated the dense energy present on the Earth. Having me on the ground in a physical body as part of the Earth collective and those I am connected with outside of the Earth’s sphere of energetic influence, together we can achieve more. That every day I become more and more like the Phoenix myself. The mythical creature who gives birth to itself over and over again, retaining all wisdom and experience and shedding all fear and trauma.
My son Phoenix came into my life like a rising star. A ball of fire that burnt through my very being. He was my son but he was the sun that shone a light upon me illuminating the truth of my infinite being.
Now every day that I am on Earth I am graced with this connection to the great Phoenix archetype, to shape and reshape myself over and over again, to serve with love and intention on the many levels of existence.