
Insights ~ Eating the Sun
Shamanic journey
My body is as old as the Earth herself made up of billions of year old bacteria, my skin, bone and flesh.
My consciousness is not so young as the Earth. My soul is of source energy infinitely older, wiser, and was here for the creation of the Earth. As one who has access to the infinite all source energy and can see what it is to be a divine being, a creator, there is a responsibility that comes with that. To be a guardian of the Earth, a healer for the earth.
The Earth is the mother of my body, my consciousness is the mother of the Earth. Earth child I am and Earth Mother also.
I am here on the ground split into a million pieces so I may serve the greater plan and heal our child the Earth with energy of light of pure consciousness of the divine creator.
Time does not exist outside of this reality, this means, in recognising that consciousness exits, means knowing it has always existed.
We are a race of ancient beings sent here to the earth to serve her, love her and hold her as she rises, we have been here since the beginning and will be here until the end. In terms of our “life span” the earth is but a child and she called out for our help. We rode in as light and split into shards embodied as beings of the earth to help guide and assist her by bringing light from our star nations. Being on the ground as we are, we are able to be conduits for this light that pours in via our nervous system, like electric lightning it moves through us, as pulses with our heart beat. Our heart beat meets the heart beat of the Earth and like a child in utero we feed her through our source energy like an umbilical cord from each one of us. We love the earth as she loves us. So unique and treasured is she, so brave in her exploration of existence in the physical realm, so creative in her expression and so welcoming to all beings who wish to reside here with her at this time, from all dimensions from all frequencies and all trajectories of evolution or degradation.
~Extracts from writings by Kilandril
I begin to dance and go into trance. My body becomes more flexible new bones and joints are formed until I have five arms and legs I’m like a star fish. I step out of the star fish onto a beach. I take hands full of the sand on the beach which is black and gold and throw it into the sky. It forms a stair case that I walk up. There is a huge golden lions head. He speaks to me. He says I am the daughter of Sirius and the son of Pleiades. I see my feminine energy as a golden woman and my masculine energy as a blue man. The lion asks me am I willing to release my body? There is some resistance but I say yes. Asks am I willing to release my mind. I say yes. He says I may step through the lions gate portal. Both aspects of me step through and completely dissolve.
I am nothing, I am floating, I am liquid and swirls of colour. I become a single amoeba then I duplicate and duplicate a million times until I form a body of lush green earth, moss, wood, mushrooms, flowers. I have a body made of the earth. I am living and flowing and growing. I have a blue star in my heart now. I walk up a tightly spiralled staircase like a DNA strand that is also made of the same lush landscapes as my body.
When I reach the top there is a golden light like a sun. This is the second sun. The second son. The second coming of Christ energy. This sun as it rises behind our sun during this lions gate portal is bringing a new consciousness to the earth. This second coming of the sun brings a golden light ray that is pure god energy and will not come as an incarnated being but as consciousness available to all beings on earth. As we enter this galactic portal we are able to step into the higher dimensional version of ourselves. One we have not been able to embody on this earth until now. I stand in front of this golden sun with the body of a goddess made of earth as Gaia and a heart of a warrior as a blue star.
A being steps out of the second sun, with elongated arms and a head that extends like a ray of light. I am embraced by the golden light of this being who tells me I must release my warriors heart. That this has served me well when I needed protecting, but I no longer need to be caught when I fall I need to be held as I rise. I have resistance to this. We have been at war for 13,000 years and I don’t know myself as anything but a warrior. The blue star in my heart steps out of me as the warrior of light and this masculine aspect starts to walk away I don’t want him to leave me. He says he will still be there at a distance. I allow the golden light to embrace me and I start to ask if not a heart of a warrior then what? I ask who is this golden being? He calls himself Grace Elohim. The sun says you are my daughter I give you a heart of the golden ray. A body of a goddess, heart of a god.
These are matching earth and second sun energies and I walk with my golden heart in the body of green moss and wood with flowers blooming out of the top of my head, back towards the earth. I feel the earth as Gaia and then I realise she can feel me, she is my body as she is her body. I reach the tips of my fingers and toes into the earth as my nervous system connects like a micro network of roots into the energy and being of the earth. I see two shattered layers of glass between her and me. A blue layer that was my concept of mind. I take some of the black and gold sand and I cast is in every direction over the layer of separation, shattered glass becomes sand and dissolves away. Another layer of separation underneath is green, this was my limited perception of what my body is. Not a container but a connection to the earth and all that it. I dissolve it in the same way.
Then I am fully submerged in the earths energy and I realise that there was never any limit to how far I could reach up towards myself as source god energy but I had limitations to reaching into the earth because I believe I was separate to the earth. Now I see and feel that my body is her body that we breathe as one and she is completely part of my energy and my being she can hear my thoughts as electric currents and she has perfect love and compassion and gratitude for me being here with her at this time of conscious evolution.
I dance and go into vision. I look towards the dawn, the sand of the desert dances to the beat of the drum and the sun creates a golden glow. I see the divine masculine as warrior men rise out of the earth, they are made of vibrating sand. I turn and I see the divine feminine as warrior women rise out of the sea, they are made of water. The warrior women merge into one divine creator being and the men offer her their protection by handing her a shield.
She takes the disc, it’s small in her hands and she turns it upside down to make a dish. She fills it will her silvery tears and hands it back to the men. In the reflection of the salty waters the men see their true selves. Not just a man of flesh and blood but made of the earth and the stars. Animal and plant also. They each cry tears into their shields holding them like a dish. They weep for themselves, the pain of separation, being lost from the truth of who they are. As they cry, the battle scars on their bodies become silver tears and pour off them transforming into a mirror for reflection. They become who they are through the divine creators vision. They become shape shifters and they connect with their instincts again. They have the eyes of jungle cats and they see so much more.
They look into the dish again. Now they see her. They say “we see you divine creator.” She feels them honour her with this new way of seeing and in joy she flies apart into little children running and squealing with delight amongst the warrior men. The little girls each take the hand of one warrior and lead them into the forest to show them the secret worlds. There is a deer standing beside a silver lake. The girl child asks to learn the wisdom of the deer and the deer sheds his antlers for the child to pick up. She hands them to the warrior as ancient wisdom. The warrior’s ask can they have their power back? She shows him to walk into the silvery lake and the waters make them strong and alive with light again.
The divine creator becomes one being again sitting calmly on the earth. The warrior men want to see more. She releases one golden tear from her third eye into each shield of silvery water. The tears rise up as vapour and they dissect the men, pull them apart into all of their aspects beyond the earth and into the stars. The warrior men become interdimensional beings of light with earth energy running through their DNA. They are ancient and wise, light beings coded with earth energy. As shape shifters they are able to embody all matter into one being. The euphoria, the ecstasy felt in their remembering is palpable.
They take up their mission. Each light warrior shape shifter takes up his shield as a dish filled with the divine creators tears and walks the earth until he finds his sacred site. He then takes a path of the light warrior, walking out into the interdimensional reality. Stepping out into the stars and contacting his brothers. Different star races are approached in this way. Each brother that sips the earthly waters becomes infused with the earth codes and becomes part of the earth. From the ground where the divine creator sits she can see the stars lighting up with connection.
All of these tribes of star beings come to hold the earth and surround her. They are blue and green with their earth energy running through them. They are connected to their ancient tribal instincts and they know what to do. It is now coded in their DNA. Around the earth is an energetic cage. Of red electric energy. Each human on earth has an electric cage around their energy body. This star tribe of brothers acting as divine masculine protector send out an ancient call, guttural and deeply moving. The frequency goes to the core of the human heart. It pulses out such profound energy that the energy cages shatter. One at a time with focused intention the star beings shatter the cages and little lines in the electric earth cage shatter as the human cages shatter.
When the energy cages have been shattered by the ancient calls. The star beings come down onto the earth. They are on mission and in a trance like state. Together with their earth brothers they dive down into a denser reality beneath what we see here. There is a very heavy and hard energy layer here with beings so heavily held they don’t know that they are captive at all.
I dive down here in the body of a warrior. I hold these dense beings in trance gaze with me. I breathe in their density and I breathe my light into them. My breath becomes cyclical and I vibrate a deep resonant sound from my chest and throat. My brothers make the ancient call. I hold and filter the dense beings while my brothers shatter the cell of dense energy around them. When they are broken out of this energy they can rise up to the new earth plane.
They are like new born humans, all light with blue and green earth energy. Other light workers breathe in the sun and breathe this light and new life into them. They are so joyful and pure in their new life. They radiate out peace and love onto the earth plane. I continue holding in trance gaze each being in this dense reality. I breathe in their energy and I breathe my light into them. I feel like I am hyperventilating but I am held by my brothers. When I become strong in this transmutation I divide myself into as many bodies as there are dense beings and I match myself to each one in trance gaze, breathing light. My brothers call the ancient sound and we shatter them all out of the dense illusion rebirthing them into the new earth and collapsing the entire dense reality like a layer being compacted out of existence.
Now we are so much closer to the heart of the earth and it glows golden and vibrant. I stand on the new earth and every new being that has been born into this higher vibration reality comes to touch me on the heart or the head with their hand which gifts me golden light and anchors me more strongly to the golden heart of the earth. Each one says “you freed me, I love you” and each time I say to the golden heart of the earth “I love you.” It is a way of sharing energy and light and love. These newly birthed humans have come from such a deep darkness and density that this earth plane is so beautiful to them. They shine so much love into the world with their gratitude and they nourish the earth and those around them. I allow myself to feel the love and the light. I infuse my body with the energy and I glow.
I dance and I go into vision.
As I dance pieces of my spine are re aligned. Hands reach in and turn the discs of my vertebrae to lock them into place. Once locked into place my spine becomes a golden rod inscribed with ancient writing. This is the hollow bone I will receive communication through. This golden rod becomes the trunk of a tree that is me. My roots reach into the earth and the neutrons of my brain which light up and reach into the cosmos become the branches. It is as if the top of my head has been opened and I can see into the infinite all. I can hear the ancient ones speak to me in their deep tones.
In this space in my opened mind in the cosmos. I see a woman from my my soul tribe. She tells me, she will show me more than I have ever seen. Even though I have seen so much. We touch our palms in communication and recognition. Golden light connects us through touch. Another comes in, wearing white, glowing white. She says if we are going to work together I need to do some clearing. She pulls white light through her body and shoots it down my body through my head. Little wisps of shadows come off me.
I stand in front of soul sister, her chest opens with blue energy morphing and we connect in this way. Our chests joining, our hearts merging with plasma. When we join I can see the deep missions we have been on. I see us diving into dense realities becoming lost, feeling as though we were destroyed. The fear and pain is intense. She tells me that we are like a generator together. There are more cells together like a battery.
There is a dream catcher like circle around her with constellations. It is a star map. She shows me we are incarnated in many bodies in many places at once. When we open to the next levels we will be able to communicate and travel into these other locations. The plasma morphs and stretches between us. Making us stronger. She says I will support her while I sleep and she will support me when she sleeps. One soul tribe member is holding the space for us to connect. She sends her white light into the plasma. My twin soul arrives a little confused and disoriented. She shines her white light into the plasma as well. This creates a cross in the energy and this is our vehicle for travel between realities and dimension in which we are incarnated. She has the star map within her and can sound us to the locations.
I see the celestial kings charging ahead on their white horses. They hold staffs of silver that emit sound frequencies. Flowing vibrations emerge from them. I see the earth Shamans calling to the star beings asking for the light to return to the earth. The queens of the starlight with beautiful silver woven crowns and white light energy sing down to the earth. They answer the earth Shamans call by sending their children to live among the earth people. These star children become half earth Shaman and half celestial being. The earth people are animalistic and primitive, only the Shamans have stars in their eyes still. The star children seem strange to the earth tribes, they won’t follow traditions. The tribes cast them out, all over the world these star children wander, lost, and with no memory of their home in the stars. They walk paths of light all over the earth. Trailing golden light over the skin of the earth. Creating energy grids. Even in their despair, in their hearts they seek answers. The moon and the stars whisper to them. The stones and the trees talk to them also.
One day the Celestial queens create a call out to all of their star children. They gather in the desert. Seeing each other under the stars at night their hearts break wide open and they know who they are. They recognise their brothers and sisters. They are fully alive and awake, embodied on the earth. They go deep under ground into honey combed like hives in the dunes to continue their work of sharing light within the earth who has spent too much time in darkness. The earth rejoices in their touch. Great cities are built on these sites as the people, sleeping still, can feel in their slumber movement in their hearts and they are drawn to the light of these star beings. The people in the golden cities become the brightest and most highly intuitive, open to inspiration and invention. These cities become great powers in the world and a brilliant light in the darkness. As the children gather and join underground, the paths of light they walk on the earth’s skin becomes energy lines, ley lines and powerful beacons to those who still have stars in their eyes. Now the younger star children walk the earth finding these paths of light seeking their brothers and sisters to reunite.