During my personal expansion I have been able to remember myself beyond this life. As a Soul having lived many lives on Earth, other planets and star systems. As well as the time I have spent in between incarnations. It is my desire to share my experiences of remembering myself as an infinite being of light so that you may remember yourself as the multidimensional being that you are. The Human vessel has far more potential than we as a species are currently experiencing. I am here in this life to help activate and awaken dormant DNA sequences in our human bodies through working with the energy of the Earth.
As a child I was highly intuitive and connected to the spirit realm. I was able to see spirits and talk with them. It was difficult for me to integrate this into my ordinary life especially as I got older and the visions became stronger and more tangible. The dream state often merging with my waking reality.
Walking on the fringes of different timelines and alternate dimensions was distracting and tiring for me as a teenager so I buried that part of myself and it lay dormant.
Until, at the age of 30 I lost my new born son, Phoenix. That experience brought me so close to death that I had to be reborn. I was put through a painful initiation and had a very harsh awakening followed by a fast tracked remembering and realignment of my life. I learned to connect with the spirit world in a different way from that time forward and I began my training. I studied with Dream teacher Robert Moss and Shamanic Teacher Sandra Ingerman through The Shift Network https://theshiftnetwork.com I was a student of Mary Reynolds Thompson through Tree Sisters https://treesisters.org/grow-yourself I learnt Transcendental Meditation to quiet and focus my mind https://tm.org.au and I am continuing my mentorship with my consciousness coaches Dov Magit and Nicole Perretti at Twin Flame Revolution https://www.twinflamerevolution.com It is a lifelong pursuit and a continual education becoming the most aligned version of yourself.
I am able to access a higher aspect of myself known to me as Kilandril from whom I receive insights and understanding beyond the reach of my human personality. Kilandril is who I know myself to be outside of any incarnation and the truest version of myself that exists.
I have been coming here to Earth for thousands of years in many incarnations in many timelines. The ability to enter the dream state and step outside of this reality while remaining present with the body is a gift that runs in my family. My ancestors are always with me, they are in my DNA and I know every one of them on some level. Each one has something to teach me.
We are truely connected to our ancestors, to the Earth and all of her kingdoms, we are part of her. Our Soul is eternal light, our body is the Earth. Its time to remember now.
I dance to the beat of the drum and I step into the vision. I am standing on a large golden disc with symbols all over it. I see the Earth below, it is completely barren. I reach up to the sky and I draw down white liquid light as life force. I am filled with the light and enclosed in an orb. I begin faceting the orb by smashing my feet into the disc below me to break off fragments. When the orb is completely faceted it shines even more radiantly. I step onto the Earth and I hit the ground hard with my feet, breaking the ground open beneath me. I strike the ground over and over with my feet, cracking the Earth open until it opens deep into the ground. I allow the white liquid life force to flow through me and into the Earth pouring down into the cracks and forming mycelium like roots. As I beat the ground beneath my feet and crack open the Earth I awaken the Earth spirits.
They rise up from the ground in a line, facing me, angry at my attack on the Earth. They are baked from clay, ochre coloured bodies and white faces. I extend my energy towards them to let them see that I am here to heal, not damage the Earth. They recieve my energy as white liquid light and then they turn to face the other angered spirits of the earth. I see the Water spirits rise up and communicate with the Earth spirits then they receive the healing light and turn. Waves and waves of these spirits rise then receive and turn until there are thousands of lines of spirits in front of me infused with the life force light. We continue in this way with me beating the Earth with my feet and them passing the light forwards line by line. The cracking of the Earth sounds like thunder and as we build the energy together there is an electric charge building also. A storm is coming. Rain starts to fall and the droplets create ripples across the energy of the orbs, now around each spirit of the Earth. The ripples collide into each other and create a crossing pattern, the weaving of the energy is strengthened by the ripples moving like sound across the entire Earth.
When the entire Earth is covered by the lines of spirits wrapped in light orbs slowly faceting. I breathe in the light, charge up my body and all of the orbs with Earth spirits allow the energy to move through them into the Earth like roots then I let the energy out with a breath and branches grow from the top of the energy orbs. All of the other orbs grow branches too. They bloom with soft pink blossoms. A beautiful white light forest covers the Earth. My tree is over all the others like a great canopy of protection. I breathe and build the energy until it rises and all of the trees grow until the blooming branches of my canopy stretch into the cool reaches of space. Many stars shine above us and many stars fall down as gifts for the Earth. Diamonds falling into the open blooms. The petals of the flowers close tightly around the diamonds and a sacred fruit is formed. Red shiny apples fall to the ground beneath the trees.
I release the building energy and I relax back into the tree then step out of the tree into the forest. There the floor of the forest is covered in red apples. I pick one up to take a bite and the sweet fruit electrifies my mind with sight and my body is charged with a current that connects the air around me. Hexagonal fractals branch out from me with each bite. Building reconnection with the All. I see the other Earth spirits step out from their trees begin to bite into the apples and connect with me and the All. Then everything begins to grow. The moss covers the ground, the mushrooms emerge, flowers bloom. I try a leaf from the tree. I place it on my tongue and the script rolls down my body like parchment. Written word rolling over me infusing into me. Knowledge being received.
I walk from the forest and I see the gaps in the Earth where I had broken it open are filled with crystal formations. The wise crystalline beings step forth, they begin to raise mountains and carve beaches and lakes. I sit beside the beach of sand and stone and I weep tears of joy to see life return in such abundance. The ocean is filled with my salty tears and waves come rolling in and crash on the shore. I am at peace as the Earth is regenerated to its forgotten glory.
Every cell in your body is identical to the cells of the Earth, your body is made of the Earth and you are an expression of her. Your body is part of her body. You are her children and she gave you this body. The Human species has a particular role to play in her evolution and healing. If our species dies out she will not be able to function properly. The best description I have heard is that the human species is like the lymphatic system of the Earth. When we had our natural way of living in harmony with the Earth. We lived and moved along the ley lines and power centres of the Earth. We were conduits of energy and we walked the energy lines for the Earth so her energy could flow and she could operate at maximum potential. We would listen to the Earth and she would move us to locations where she needed to focus her energy, she would gather us at important astrological events so she could communication with her star brothers and sisters. We created a homeostasis in the Earths field. We were connected with each other and made a grid of protection for the Earth. The electrical circuits of our body connecting and expanding our energy body to meet with and connect with our other brother and sister species such as the animals and plants. This way we created alchemy for the Earth. Moving with the seasons and the stars we were guided by our Mother the Earth and she was protected and healed by us.
Now we have forgotten, now we have been lied to. Now we must remember that which we have forgotten, that which was stolen from us. Because it wasn’t our natural evolution that brought us here. It was war, coercion, manipulation, interference and massive disturbance. It isn’t our nature to live in disharmony with the Earth it is by design. It is time for you to consider whose design? Whose plan for humanity is this? And are you playing right into their hands.
There is a filthy lie being passed around among the self righteous, self acclaimed leaders of the economy, health and governance. And sadly many Earth based intelligent natural human beings are buying into it. The first time I heard it was in the Matrix movie. “Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet, you are a plague, and we are the cure.” Agent Smith The Matrix.
This lie has become so pervasive that I hear people repeat it back to me as if it is their own realisation. An epiphany that some how resolves all of their questions. Well I tell you now it has been planted there for you to “discover”. It has been repeated until somehow it has become an acceptable truth.
There are two parts to this lie:
First “Human beings are a disease”. This captures those that can justify to themselves that they are living a sustainable life. Because they are now exempt and place themselves above the rest of humanity.
Second “and we are the cure”. So now we find our selves in a situation where we are facing a genocide. Not just one race of people from one country but the entire world, all people.
Instead of uniting and seeing what is being done to us as a species we are fractured and we are against each other. We are divided and we are accepting this lie. So now we go along with the genocide because those humans we consider consumers must go so we, the superior race, of sustainable ones may have a place on the Earth and there are only limited resources after all. Right?
This is what captured consciousness looks like. You have been deceived.
You are an infinite being of light your soul eternal. Every cell of your body is identical to the cells of the earth. You are not a disease on the Earth neither are any of your brothers and sisters. You are all of equal value to the Earth. You each have a purpose and a unique strength or gift. When we heal from this sickness we heal the Earth too. The sickness is in the mind the sickness is in the body and it has been inflicted on us. On a spiritual level this is a test to see how far we can go into the darkness and still be able to return to the light. Every dive we take into the shadows we gather more depth of understanding. But there is a risk we could loose ourselves we could loose the Earth. It is time to turn it around now we are at the most base level of our existence. Time to return to our brilliance and gather all of this knowledge to be shared and learned from.
As I dance to the deep pulsing beats I go into trance. I step out of my body and I see the desert, sand dancing all around me to the vibrations of the drums. It is night and as I step out further and I see a group of Arabian women dressed in deep reds with sheer silk face coverings and dark kohl design around their eyes. They dance to the beat with me, then they circle around me and they sing with high frequency earth tremoring tones. The sound is dizzying and I am led by them to an underground chamber. Where I am greeted by the Intuitive warrior, I know him, he holds a large Persian Sword. He walks towards me and places the point of the sword into the sand at my feet as a symbol of fealty. I tell him I can’t lead, I don’t know the way. He says that if we walk together we will both see. A connection has been made and as he walks my feet move with his. I stand behind him, but I see the way ahead and so he sees it also. We are linked.
He leads us out of the chamber following my instinctual and visual guidance. As we come out under the night sky I look up to the stars. My body arching backwards. The constellations in my eyes lock with the constellations of the stars. Then multiple constellations are drawn out of the sky and aspects of myself and the Intuitive Warrior are pulled down to Earth from lives we were living in the stars. These aspects of us are now drawn here to join with us, enhance us, expand us. My aspects stand either side of me, they look like me, they are me. They have different experiences, they have different knowledge. They stand with me and we sway to the music as my heart beat comes into sync with theirs and we merge into one. The etheric layers of me are electric and colourful like oil on water as the dissimilar energy meets and merges. I feel alive but also very tired. Like all of the cumulative years of my many lives has hit me like aging hundreds of years all at once.
After we have both merged the aspects of ourselves from distant constellations. We are met by two other warriors, one is Head and Heart strong the other is Fluid, the Intuitive warrior takes his sword and I see it has ancient Arabic writing alive on it with fire. He brands the Head and Heart strong warrior across the chest leaving writing on his body like a tattoo. He brands the Fluid Warrior on the upper right arm leaving the written text. They all stand opposite me in the formation of an arrow. The ancient text starts to come alive like fire wire. It moves from them to me. Long lines of fire wire moving through my body and it burns hot. Rewiring ancient memories of them with me in past lives. As allies, as kin. As one. As my body is awakening with memories my spine becomes activated and grows huge within my body, each disc becomes a temple that expands and sets itself down on the Earth. The temples are carved from stone and they surround us in a circle.
Then my blood brothers come to stand either side of me and behind me. Green alive lines of energy move through me and through them cooling and protecting. I wrap it all around them and cover their skin in ivy leaves so they can’t be seen, a camouflage. I shield them as they stand in an arrow formation behind me.
After the rewiring has completed I am very tired but we have to keep following the path that is unfolding visually now like electric light in the dark of night. We see our way ahead as we all stand together. The formation shifts as I am tired. The Head and Heart warrior carries me and the Intuitive Warrior and Fluid warrior walk ahead. My body is limp but I am speaking as we walk. With my eyes closed I am still guiding us. I ask the Intuitive warrior why they need me to see. He says because a woman has a greater capacity for information, memory and codes than a man does. That is why we are often allies. He says you can see the way ahead and I have immense focus so I can forge the path, no distractions no obstacles, nothing can stop me.
As we are walking in formation like this more allies join us. Light hearted and free spirited they joke and jest and they tell me stories, reminding me of times long ago when we were free to roam the Earth as children of the universe. We were giants, we were spirited and whole beings. Like a band of merry travellers we weave our way through the memories and unlock many temples on the earth that came from the stars for people to bring facets of themselves home to them. Syncing their heart beats and aligning with their fullness as divine and alive beings of the earth and the stars.
He was a wild boy and I was a wild girl too. We were never meant to live a life of captivity, traps were everywhere, so we ran. Into the forest and far away. I thought they would never catch us. But one day they did. I slowed him down and they baited him, the wolf. They caught him and they took him from me. I got away, but only barely, the scars still show. I skulked in the shadows, black panther, comoflagued, hidden, alone.
I couldn’t stay hidden forever. There was a light growing inside of me. A gift from the wolf. A rising star so bright it burnt through all of the shadows and camouflage. A ball of fire that burnt through my very being, a sun that shone within me, illuminating everything. Searing the skin from my blackened body, it burst forth. The pain was unimaginable. Through the fire and fury I became the Phoenix.
On the fiery wings of the Phoenix I fly high above the chaos and the lies. I see the traps and distorted timelines. Splitting and falling away. The dead are walking among us now. We will be the living. We will be those who rise after humanity has fallen to ashes. As we always have.
~In Memory of my Son Phoenix 08.08.15 — 888—24—6—333333—18—9— As above so below
Past life memories are coming back to us now. If not naturally then with assistance. Why is this so important? Because we need to know where we have come from to know where we are going. Whether this is memory in your blood from your ancestors or memories in your soul from past incarnations. All of this knowledge is accessible now. There is a struggle happening. Some forces seek to hide the knowledge from us so we remain small and others are protecting the knowledge so we may find it.
This is a past life memory shared with me of a warrior protecting the kings list which has the records of the Kings descended from heaven who each reigned for thousands of years. This carved stone text is a record showing human lifespans that have shrunk from thousands of years to hundreds, to barely a hundred.
~We cross the bridge into a past life. We are in Mesopotamia. I see the warrior standing with bare legs, wild hair, feet on dusty, dry earth. He wears a gauntlet of leather, brass and steel and is stained with the dust from many days of hard journey through the desert. It is a vast space with only a few sparse stands of trees. He and his band of travellers carry something very precious, ancient and dangerous in the wrong hands. They guard it well day and night. Stopping to make camp in the empty desert. At night they stand vigil and watch the night pass as others sleep.
The warrior stoic in his mind and body, knows the charge he has been given, he knows the consequences if they fail. A terror will be unleashed on the Earth that no man would survive. So the few that must fall to guard this secret is a small price to pay in comparison. He pays dearly for it though, every time a man falls under his protection a piece of him dies inside. He knows the toll of this work will one day take him to an early grave, he sees his mentor on his way there now. Strung out under the pressure of responsibility he drinks himself to numbness and dies a little inside every day so he may live one more mission. He has become hardened and calloused from this work.
They pick up where they left off, one more day’s walk until they reach their destination. The wagon strains on the dry earth under the immense weight of the sacred box within. They see the earth walls and the opening into the temple beneath the earth. The hired labour take the great chest from the wagon and carry it into the tomb. The warrior’s follow them silently and dispatch them with expert precision. Dead before they hit the ground. No inkling of what was coming. It’s better this way. They die with honour and have been given a pass to the afterlife because of their contribution to this sacred mission. They are buried in a place of prominence within the underground temple.
Returning to their lives undercover as ordinary citizens the warriors mix with the upper class, those in high places and the common folk in the marketplace to keep a finger on the pulse of information moving through the gossip circles. The bought and paid for secrets and fabricated stories are reaching almost a mythical status now.
We see the warrior at home with his family a wife and son, they are part of his cover, his mind always on his mission, it is what he was born to do and he will die for his cause one day, if he does live on he will become one of the council but few ever make it that far. And who would want to sit upon a seat that carries such burden. He surely never wants his son to suffer the life he has lived and prays that one day he will walk another path. Take his mother and cross the sea to safety. Build a new life and take his lineage in another direction. One of peace, not this silent war that wages under the surface.
If the sacred texts, (the cuniform tablets of the kings list) can be secured into the temples at their designated locations all will be right and good for the future and the people will be free from tyranny.
As we are drawn back to ourselves as whole beings of divine light. We begin to find our kin, those of our soul blood. Our crystalline DNA fractals merging and meeting with others we have known before. In other bodies in other times. Our divine soul knowns no time and our crystalline DNA knows no difference between one body or another. We are being drawn back together, joining to make our majesty known. As our missions take place on Earth. We are asked now to get to our starting positions.
This awakening and reconnection with our Kin is happening quickly and the integration time we are allowed is minimal. Fast remembering is coming in. Lives lived with our kin as lovers, brothers, fathers, mothers. The relationship often just a way to place us together on Earth. As our memories return, so too do our bonds. The over lapping and interlacing of experience to awaken our connection. The human body has a soul lineage and a blood lineage. Now the Soul lineage is being awoken the blood lineage become less important. A person you have known for one lifetime feels insignificant next to someone you have known for eons. Threading in and out of incarnations together. Working on missions that bridge many life times. Keeping the soul lineage alive within the blood lineage. Incarnating in the same blood lines to build the knowledge base deeper and deeper into the bones and blood. The instinct the intuition. The need to find each other. The hunt to find each other. Closing in now. Getting closer. Full activation of sight, memory and wisdom keys to unlock what we know as a group of kindred souls.
The memories hold keys but are painful to witness. The flashes of lives lived, bodies held and let go of. The mind we had, the emotions, the thoughts and the pain. Lessons integrating across many timelines now. The masculine and feminine making peace as we remember living as both man and woman. The strengths and roles of each appreciated and understood as we have lived both. The forgiveness and compassion flowing through from our ancestors way back.
Our body, our vessel on the Earth plane creates a great energy field around it. The knowledge bank we hold in our DNA crystallises as our expanded awareness grows and we each reach our far beyond our physical body to connect these bridges of light. Fractals unfolding and weaving together as information and memory is shared with our kin. Not all of this needs to run through our human mind so much is done on a soul level. As we walk between these bridges we are building we know so much more than one mind can hold at any time. Our data bases are growing our knowledge descending deep into the earth, our storage banks of crystal and stone opening to us now. The Earth memory and wisdom feeding through our cells and aligning us to the magnetic grids of the earth, our navigation systems coming on line. We will know where each of our soul kin is located we will be placed at intervals so we may all connect in groups and then bridge the distance. We are wiring our own network of communication far more advanced than current technology. We can channel and receive from each other on a soul level as well as reading the DNA crystalline data bases and Earth wisdom. This network is being put in place and many of us a being told to go to certain locations to connect. This is all planned and pre designed by our soul selves and our Soul kin groups.
As the weaving continues and the fractals spiral into place. We are feeling a lose of time, balance and coherence in our surrounding environment. This is what it feel like when you bend time and space to pull the Earth into her highest evolutionary path. The winding of wormholes and the sealing of energy fragments. We are are the elders of a future that is being written now. We will have to live right through this war to come to a place of freedom.
Wounded Masculine: Run away with me. It is the ultimate seduction. It says you are the single most important thing to me. I would leave everything and everyone behind for you. We can start a new life together. We can be free.
Wounded Feminine: Don’t leave me behind. It’s in our genes, our blood, our memory banks. Every time the men have gone away to war and never come home, and the women have had to carry the burden alone. Now when Daddy or Husband goes away for work it may as well be war, he may as well be going to his death.
The Shadow of escapism wounded masculine and feminine: Fleeing from the pain and the problems. Living on the run because your shadows will hunt you down if you stand still. You can hit the road, swallow some pills, wrap your body around another. There are so many ways to evade your pain. Keeping your mind busy with stimulation and experience. Or numbing yourself until you can’t feel a thing. Killing yourself slowly until you don’t even remember your own name.
But where does this pain come from?
The Wound of Separation: Entering this world of duality. Entering the human form. The single mind splitting away from unity consciousness. “I drop to my knees with the pain. I remember the original separation from my soul family as a tearing of my flesh. As if my greater body is being torn apart.” https://kilandril.com/2021/01/13/change-will-come-light-language-vision/
How do we heal this wound? Remembering our Connection. Holding our own and opening our hearts.
The Awakened Masculine: When “run away with me” evolves. Walk beside me as my equal and we will forge a new path of evolution not only for ourselves but for the entire human species. I will teach, protect, hold and respect you.
The Awakened Feminine: When “don’t leave me behind” evolves. I know my value as your equal, I will walk beside you. I am here to guide us in the direction of our expanded awareness and remembrance of earth wisdom. I will advise, inspire, nurture and create balance.
We are so powerful when we come together with our Tribe. We are so powerful when we come into unity within. There are so many traps laid in the earth grids right now. Be nimble, be wise and work together to remember who you are. Infinite being of light I call to you now to awaken.
They aren’t what you think they are. You won’t see our Warriors of the Light as luminous beings whole and correct within a society that is damaged. They are a product of our society, they are damaged and real, they have scars and marks all over their bodies. They are here in this matrix to smash it apart. To tear down the walls that create the prison you are living in. Don’t judge them harshly, open your eyes and see their LIGHT. The soul who has sacrificed their place in heaven to be here on Earth in the hell realms with you. While you are evolving at a natural pace they are forced in the physical to undergo unbearable pain and torment. It isn’t their natural state to be in a body, it isn’t their natural state to be living on a prison planet. They are here with purpose and with a mission. If you aren’t here to help them just get out of their way.
There are many who walk among us who are here to create great change. I am blessed (or cursed) with the ability to SEE them. They rarely if ever see me and I am unable to reach many of them. I can see their soul being tortured in this limited reality and I want to help. But you can’t walk up to a stranger and tell them they have an entire battalion of light warriors walking behind them….. That they are leading a revolution in consciousness….. That if all they can do is stay alive today, that is all they need to do because just their energy being on the Earth right now is holding a frequency that is keeping the planet from spinning out of control into chaos. No… you can’t say that to a stranger. However. Every so often, a Soul Brother will see me. That is when I feel blessed. And every so often a Soul Brother will hear me. That is the real game changer.
I am a conduit for information to come in from higher realms. I speak truth and I speak from a love frequency. When people are open to receiving, it comes through me and I get to see the story too. I learn so much from translating this energy for people. It’s what I love.
Often It will begin with a dream. I will be shown a person, their energy, their purpose. I might not even know them yet. Then I will be asked in the dream state to clear energy for them, to give support to them. That they are doing something important in the higher realms to correct the energy on Earth. This is one story of a Soul Brother who was open to see and hear. I was seeing visions for him well before he asked me to Journey on his behalf and it was a relief to share that information with him, see him integrate it and recalibrate his life moving forwards.
To all the Warriors of Light I know what you have been through to get to where you are now, and I know that people can’t see it. So there will be no regard
I know what it takes, how much strength and purpose must run through you to have the determination in the face of absolute heart break to stick to your convictions. When you stand face to face with those you love and tell them you are leaving to carve out a new path.
I know that you let everything that you had built until this day crumble at your feet because you know it has no worth where you are going, and it will slow you down. As you cut these things away from your life, you bleed from the loss.
I know how many trials you have been through, how much your body has twisted in pain and how many nightmares you have torn your way through just to be here still
I am here to witness you, I am here to tell you that it is going to be worth it, you are creating great ripples of change across the world and the universe.
Together we are stepping into a new reality where the only rules that apply will be those fundamental universal principles that govern us all.
~In this video you will see the FULL Shamanic experience through a Spirit Journey with Kilandril. You will hear every word and exploration of a personal spirit journey. It is raw & uncensored.
I listen to the beat of the drum and I stare deep into the Peruvian pattern. I step out of myself and my feet fall on hard stone. I see a rainforest shaman walk towards me out of the darkness. He is wearing colourful garments and a headdress. He comes towards me as if he is hunting me so I run. He shoots a poison dart into my leg and I fall.
I am being carried on a leather stretcher and am placed by the fire. I lay on my side and I cry, I am at his mercy now. He sits beside me and the poison from the dart starts moving through my body. He says it is plant medicine to help me see. He chants and sings in high rhythmic tones as he blows smoke all around me. I begin to see geometric shapes and fractal designs coming out of the smoke and the rainforest Shamans face.
My body moves involuntarily and I stand. I can see the plant medicine move through me from the point of impact. Green fractals and sacred geometric patterns crawl across my skin. As I am lifted I see a woman come towards me. She is made of the green sacred geometry and great halos of the energy hang around her body. She is the medicine. The Night Vine reaches out from her and curls around my neck, ankles and wrists. She turns to walk into the forest and I am bound to follow her. I walk as she walks. If I struggle the vines tighten. If I try to fall down they hold me up. So I just relax and follow.
She walks me briskly through the dark night of the forest. We come to a waterfall and river where the water is made of lost souls. They flow down in a ghoulish white liquid, cascading over the rocks. She effortlessly leaps to the other side. I am drawn after her. She walks me to a gigantic tree with an open trunk, the buttress roots folding open like a curtain to create a cave within. She sits at the fire and I sit opposite her. I look at her and I begin to ask questions. I ask why are you communicating with me? You are divine and I am only human. She says that she speaks to those who listen and she lays my hand over hers, palm up. The green geometry fractals of her energy burst through my palm and cover my body rapidly. I feel the cool liquid and it creates a great pressure in my heart. Makes it hard to breathe. I feel I am losing myself. A vine bursts out of my chest when the pressure gets so intense I can’t bear it. And the vine unfolds then opens into a bud. Growing until it blooms. I ask if it is a seed and she says no it is a gem. I see inside the flower a huge clear pale yellow crystal that is flat front and back but heavily faceted around the edges. I take the crystal from the flower and I hold it up in the light of the fire. It reflects from every facet creating beams of light that create a huge living light body. The vine wilts and withers away to nothing leaving a hole in my heart where the vine burst through. I place the huge crystal in the void. And it clicks in. It reaches from my pelvis to my collar bone. The huge energy body of light surrounds me.
The plant medicine lady says we are going deep now and she comes towards me with force, pushing me down through the earth and we fall backwards until we are falling through the depth of the ocean. She is pushing me deeper and deeper. I look up at her face as her hair billows out behind her and I silently scream as all the air leaves my body. The pressure builds and we go deep in the crevices of the hidden ocean. Her force is immense she just continues pushing me down, her palm on my chest and the both of us falling down under her perpetual motion.
The movement is slowed by the gravity and pressure of the water as I hit the floor of the ocean. My back lays flat against the sea bed. We are so deep that gravity deceives me. I don’t know which way is up. We are at the heart of the earth. The crystal glows golden and the heart of the Earth communicates with it in colour and sound frequency. I ask the plant medicine lady how can she travel so far from the rainforest and she says she can go everywhere now. She shows me her energy being taken to many different countries and her energy is so big she can reach everywhere now. She shows me her grandmothers as extremely potent but fixed to the forest. Where as she, although softer has a further reach and she can speak to more people. Her grandmothers only spoke to a few.
After the communication is complete. The plant medicine woman draws me back up, faster this time, extreme pace until we break the surface of the ocean and then the earth’s atmosphere. She takes me into the far reaches of space to a solar planet. My home. I feel the liquid light fold around me and melt into me like honey. My friends are here. My true family. Beautiful harmony is felt all through my being. I stay and I speak to my true family. I learn so many things. Then I see the plant medicine woman brace herself and she says it is the end. The star is dying from the physical plane to enter the ether. I must be prepared to carry more light. The entire solar planet implodes and goes within itself. Pushing all of the light into the star at my heart. I am filled with radiant light. All of my star family are within me. The plant medicine lady draws me back towards the Earth and as we go in closer I can see a metal claw like structure around the earth holding it in place. As I enter the atmosphere with the heart of a star the claw breaks away as if it is being burnt into corrosion.
I walk with liquid legs of light. I am radiance. I am in a pure bliss state. The plant medicine lady returns me to the care of the rainforest shaman and he blows smoke all around me like a blanket. He brings me back into my body. It is too much to be in my body again. I tell him I cant hold all of this light, my body is too small. I cry as I lay on my side. Trying to hold myself together. Fearing I will splinter off into spears of light, become refracted. He brings different forest animals to my side. They try to connect with me. I am inconsolable. Then the black jaguar lays beside me with a sigh and touches my face with a cold nose and tickling whiskers. I open my eyes and I see the black fur, each stand as a pillar of light, green plant medicine fractals run deep in the body of the forest feline and I see the way he stands in the shadow as the light. His body is the earth. No small vessel, but an entire eco system held as life by our supreme mother, Gaia. Then I understand and I relax, I let the edges of my body soften and I expand to see and feel my body as the Earth. The light that was burning me now illuminates me and I don’t have to carry the burden alone. I was transporting the heart of a star to her next home. I tell the Earth I have seen her future and it is brilliant. She will become light incarnate and she will take us all to the higher realms with her. I pour love into my familiar, Solange, black Jaguar. Who has taught me so Much. How to be a light in the shadow. His name tells me who he is. Sol – Light. Ange – Angel. Light Angel. Messenger of the Light.
I ask the rainforest Shaman how to get home from here. He just smiles and blows smoke into my face as he commands me to awaken. I open my eyes and I return.
This piece of writing has re emerged from the archives, it wants to be read.
This is a seed and only a beginning of the evolution that will occur.
The end of a cycle is coming and we all better brace ourselves. There is a lot of talk about what is going to happen. Whether only the 144,000 chosen ones will survive or that everyone will rise in consciousness or some other unforeseen outcome will ensue. Whatever is coming, we are faced with the same problem. People have stopped listening to the Earth. We no longer allow her to guide us. She is all powerful and has a greater understanding of what is. We will need her to help us navigate our way through what lies ahead.
From my instinctive human perspective these are the things I see coming for us:
There will be a shift in consciousness, and it will be to a higher place. A lot of people will be lost, killed, or removed from the current equation. Not because they have been bad, but because they are not ready to accept and embrace the new cycle. Each person has their own path, and that path is a cycle of growth and understanding. When someone can no longer travel along their path or they have completed their path, they complete themselves and leave this existence and they enter their own ether.
Mother Earth herself will change drastically, she will awaken from her current subtle slumber and itch and scratch until she is again happy with her current state of being. She has been here from the beginning, the true eternal mother and protector, she has given and taken life and has always guided us along our own spirit paths. We must strive to find harmony with Mother Earth, for without her there would be no experience.
Before we came here from the stars, in our spiritual forms we found that we had a connection with this planet that we called Earth. By manifesting ourselves into certain forms we discovered that we had the ability to exist on Earth and experience in condensed physical form what it is to feel pain, loss, ecstasy, and joy. In our spirit forms we made the decision to bind ourselves to this planet. To condense into physical being. To affect others and our environment. We knew what would occur once we felt what it is like to have power over others. To be in a physical form that could have control over another physical being. We knew that a lot of problems would occur, and we knew that we could potentially destroy ourselves. But we also knew that was the process we had to go through in order to develop respect for life and Mother Earth.
The thing we were not prepared for was the effect that the environment of Earth and the physical realm would have on us. In binding ourselves to the Earth we had to remove the memory of the heightened spiritual truth that we had already reached, for if we retained that knowledge on Earth, we would not be able to appreciate the true essence of the physical and the emotions that came with that. We were given the seed of awareness in our incarnated forms that there is more to the universe than just the physical and what we could see, but this awareness was only to be activated gradually for we needed to go through the process of experience, error, and discovery to be able to hold a balance with the physical and the spiritual. When the time comes, then we will be able to activate the universal truth that we already possess.
It is through the searching and yearning for more that triggers the activation of truth and the awareness that a balance must be found to keep stability on all levels. All people develop at different stages, for everyone has their own spiritual path to travel. We must respect the fact that we are all different and we cannot pass judgement on someone who’s development is at a different pace than ours.
There is more than just one race of star beings that exist and when the first race chose earth, others followed. One of the first star races that manifested went to Atlantis. They were able to develop faster both physically and spiritually as at that time Mother Earth was more active, thus the Atlantean’s managed to retain the ability to understand the Earth as a conscious being when they came into the physical. Because of this advanced understanding Atlanteans appeared as a threat to other nations as they were considered superior. As new star nations manifested themselves into the dense 3D realm on Earth the Atlantean’s dispersed themselves and cloaked themselves giving them the ability to exist anonymous and slowly activate within others the increased ability to understand aspects of the universal truths.
Many nations have come to earth possessing different gifts and abilities, as Mother Gaia desired. The Mayans had great understanding of energy and they had the ability to understand how the universe and the stars worked. When they reached evolution capacity, they too dispersed amongst the populace slowly activating that innate knowledge amongst the different nations. Mother Gaia knew that for all the star nations to exist in harmony together in the physical, each person had to be different in many aspects both physically and mentally. That way we develop the desire to learn from each other. Each person having a personal truth and understanding. Then we develop the desire to come together in unity and together form one truth, the universal truth that we once knew. Though when we knew it in the beginning it was only knowledge, it was not experienced as a truth, and that is why Earth as a haven for connection was chosen. It must be understood that Mother Gaia was not forced into this union, she held the physical and spiritual truth within her from the beginning and knew that by sharing herself with us and guiding us we would be able to keep this universe of ours in a heightened beautiful existence.
All the time, new star nations are forming and searching for the physical truths that we now are experiencing. It is profound how greatly one can be changed by a single experience. Since we are bound as humans in the physical at this point in our journey, we are subject to the environment and are changed and affected by many different elements. These elements are not always wholly good, for in experience itself there must be a balance between the negative and the positive. If we are at a point in our cycle when we are faced with negative energies, we will often find ourselves giving into them and thus we start projecting negative energy onto others and if that energy is fed then it grows, and we will see that the whole Earth cycle can be disrupted and warped. These occurrences have happened often and are triggered by the need to control and be in a place of power. When this kind of thing occurs, Mother Earth steps in, as well as the onlooking star nations, and they work together to send a bigger guide for our evolution in physical form to inspire and direct the masses to the true path. Though often as a race we are then subject to fear of ‘that which we don’t understand’ and we do not see or acknowledge the sign, or we unintendedly alter the message given by the guide and we are then shifted from the path in another direction.
Mother Earth is made completely of energy, and she has always been energy. Scientists are in the belief that they know how the Earth evolved and how we came to be, and in many ways, they are correct, but they fail to see that the consciousness of Mother Earth has always been here.
It is my belief that this galaxy that we live in was once one huge star, and it contained its own race of star people, and this star’s energy built to an extreme and it broke apart, In the intense energy force that split up the star the central core of the star held its place in the universe and an energy vortex was created around it and inside it. The core turned itself into a small star to contain this energy. This powerful vortex held in it the other pieces of the star and spun them at such a heightened speed that they too found their place in the energy vortex of what is now the Sun. They became the balanced physical of the sphere which holds a centre of pure energy, knowledge, and truth. They now circle the central sun of the original star from which we all expand and have developed their own different physical elements due to the factors of time and change. Mother Earth herself had to experience extreme physical transformation through her connection to the making of the universe.
In time, she has created for herself an organic surface which is completely part of her. Here she has found the perfect place for her original star people to have their physical experience and expression. Although she was all loving and wise, she did not know and could not know what would happen when she and the star nations agreed to bind themselves together in a physical realm. We as people, in our bound mental states have failed to respect our Mother and failed to understand what a privilege it is to be here with her. We have made many mistakes in the past which have triggered an uproar from Mother Earth. She has shaken us, crushed us, burnt us, drowned us, and swallowed us in extreme ways to try to get her messages through our dense awareness. Then we have had to return to her with new understandings and have had to try to reach the point when we can find the universal balance of the physical and the spiritual. Within each generation Mother Earth awakens a few select people to new understandings and awareness. These people are our guides, our teachers, our visionaries, and our muses. If she activated these understandings within all of us at once, we would have no need to come together and find unity, we would not walk our own path of evolution but hers. The potential for truth is within all, it is up to us personally to assist others in the activation of that truth and to look around us and to listen to Mother Earth when she is constantly guiding us to the activation points.
Together we can connect, grow, expand, feel, love, and live. Together we are One.