Take me to Hell

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He sold his soul to the devil

And I followed him to hell

I learned to walk through fire there

And burned off all my gold

I could come and go untethered

He was bound to stay

My love was never bright enough

to lift him from this grave

When offered up redemption

He said his soul was stained

He could never walk beside me

In the light of day

When I left him, in his bitter hell

He could not find his way

He never knew I was the light

Until I walked away

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Loyalty and Betrayal

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The war on consciousness is raging everyday. The battle lines have been drawn up. We are seeing the divide widen as each person takes their place on the battle field. Everything is coming out in the open and we see who has remained staunchly loyal to their mission and who has betrayed their soul for ill gotten gains.

This is an epochal time on planet earth, it is no game, the stakes are high and even the hardened warriors are falling prey to the new weaponised control systems. The betrayal is felt deeply, wounding the physical bodies of those loyal to the earths evolution. Each time a warrior falls, a scar, like a memory is cut into one who remains loyal. This way we will always remember our fallen. And when the war is over we will come back for them and dig them out of the trenches, to bring them back to the light.

Do you remember?

When we moved as one

To take down the sun

And shine the blinding rays

Into the eyes of our foe

We would always run

Through the wild winds

Down the mountainside

To see who was the faster, you or I

We were the wild ones

Who knew we were free

In kinship with the Earth

And her kind

We could always find our foe

For where ever we did go

They were sure to be in our shadow

Just a memory now gone

A time long before

When we were free

Now our Foe is the faster one

Our secret sold

For shining gold

And now all do know

How we were faster and free

The light in our souls

It made us move so swiftly

And now the shadow has swallowed

All the gold and told us

We are no longer free to be

Upon the earth

That we must pay to move this way

A toll on our souls every day

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You are a child of the Universe, no less than the trees and the stars

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Art by Russell Kightley ~ Animal Cell

Every cell in your body is identical to the cells of the Earth, your body is made of the Earth and you are an expression of her. Your body is part of her body. You are her children and she gave you this body. The Human species has a particular role to play in her evolution and healing. If our species dies out she will not be able to function properly. The best description I have heard is that the human species is like the lymphatic system of the Earth. When we had our natural way of living in harmony with the Earth. We lived and moved along the ley lines and power centres of the Earth. We were conduits of energy and we walked the energy lines for the Earth so her energy could flow and she could operate at maximum potential. We would listen to the Earth and she would move us to locations where she needed to focus her energy, she would gather us at important astrological events so she could communication with her star brothers and sisters. We created a homeostasis in the Earths field. We were connected with each other and made a grid of protection for the Earth. The electrical circuits of our body connecting and expanding our energy body to meet with and connect with our other brother and sister species such as the animals and plants. This way we created alchemy for the Earth. Moving with the seasons and the stars we were guided by our Mother the Earth and she was protected and healed by us.

Now we have forgotten, now we have been lied to. Now we must remember that which we have forgotten, that which was stolen from us. Because it wasn’t our natural evolution that brought us here. It was war, coercion, manipulation, interference and massive disturbance. It isn’t our nature to live in disharmony with the Earth it is by design. It is time for you to consider whose design? Whose plan for humanity is this? And are you playing right into their hands.

There is a filthy lie being passed around among the self righteous, self acclaimed leaders of the economy, health and governance. And sadly many Earth based intelligent natural human beings are buying into it. The first time I heard it was in the Matrix movie. “Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet, you are a plague, and we are the cure.” Agent Smith The Matrix.

This lie has become so pervasive that I hear people repeat it back to me as if it is their own realisation. An epiphany that some how resolves all of their questions. Well I tell you now it has been planted there for you to “discover”. It has been repeated until somehow it has become an acceptable truth.

There are two parts to this lie:

First “Human beings are a disease”. This captures those that can justify to themselves that they are living a sustainable life. Because they are now exempt and place themselves above the rest of humanity.

Second “and we are the cure”. So now we find our selves in a situation where we are facing a genocide. Not just one race of people from one country but the entire world, all people.

Instead of uniting and seeing what is being done to us as a species we are fractured and we are against each other. We are divided and we are accepting this lie. So now we go along with the genocide because those humans we consider consumers must go so we, the superior race, of sustainable ones may have a place on the Earth and there are only limited resources after all. Right?

This is what captured consciousness looks like. You have been deceived.

You are an infinite being of light your soul eternal. Every cell of your body is identical to the cells of the earth. You are not a disease on the Earth neither are any of your brothers and sisters. You are all of equal value to the Earth. You each have a purpose and a unique strength or gift. When we heal from this sickness we heal the Earth too. The sickness is in the mind the sickness is in the body and it has been inflicted on us. On a spiritual level this is a test to see how far we can go into the darkness and still be able to return to the light. Every dive we take into the shadows we gather more depth of understanding. But there is a risk we could loose ourselves we could loose the Earth. It is time to turn it around now we are at the most base level of our existence. Time to return to our brilliance and gather all of this knowledge to be shared and learned from.

Wild Ones

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He was a wild boy and I was a wild girl too. We were never meant to live a life of captivity, traps were everywhere, so we ran. Into the forest and far away. I thought they would never catch us. But one day they did. I slowed him down and they baited him, the wolf. They caught him and they took him from me. I got away, but only barely, the scars still show. I skulked in the shadows, black panther, comoflagued, hidden, alone.


I couldn’t stay hidden forever. There was a light growing inside of me. A gift from the wolf. A rising star so bright it burnt through all of the shadows and camouflage. A ball of fire that burnt through my very being, a sun that shone within me, illuminating everything. Searing the skin from my blackened body, it burst forth. The pain was unimaginable. Through the fire and fury I became the Phoenix.


On the fiery wings of the Phoenix I fly high above the chaos and the lies. I see the traps and distorted timelines. Splitting and falling away. The dead are walking among us now. We will be the living. We will be those who rise after humanity has fallen to ashes. As we always have.

~In Memory of my Son Phoenix 08.08.15 — 888—24—6—333333—18—9— As above so below

Kindred Souls

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As we are drawn back to ourselves as whole beings of divine light. We begin to find our kin, those of our soul blood. Our crystalline DNA fractals merging and meeting with others we have known before. In other bodies in other times. Our divine soul knowns no time and our crystalline DNA knows no difference between one body or another. We are being drawn back together, joining to make our majesty known. As our missions take place on Earth. We are asked now to get to our starting positions.

This awakening and reconnection with our Kin is happening quickly and the integration time we are allowed is minimal. Fast remembering is coming in. Lives lived with our kin as lovers, brothers, fathers, mothers. The relationship often just a way to place us together on Earth. As our memories return, so too do our bonds. The over lapping and interlacing of experience to awaken our connection. The human body has a soul lineage and a blood lineage. Now the Soul lineage is being awoken the blood lineage become less important. A person you have known for one lifetime feels insignificant next to someone you have known for eons. Threading in and out of incarnations together. Working on missions that bridge many life times. Keeping the soul lineage alive within the blood lineage. Incarnating in the same blood lines to build the knowledge base deeper and deeper into the bones and blood. The instinct the intuition. The need to find each other. The hunt to find each other. Closing in now. Getting closer. Full activation of sight, memory and wisdom keys to unlock what we know as a group of kindred souls.

The memories hold keys but are painful to witness. The flashes of lives lived, bodies held and let go of. The mind we had, the emotions, the thoughts and the pain. Lessons integrating across many timelines now. The masculine and feminine making peace as we remember living as both man and woman. The strengths and roles of each appreciated and understood as we have lived both. The forgiveness and compassion flowing through from our ancestors way back.

Our body, our vessel on the Earth plane creates a great energy field around it. The knowledge bank we hold in our DNA crystallises as our expanded awareness grows and we each reach our far beyond our physical body to connect these bridges of light. Fractals unfolding and weaving together as information and memory is shared with our kin. Not all of this needs to run through our human mind so much is done on a soul level. As we walk between these bridges we are building we know so much more than one mind can hold at any time. Our data bases are growing our knowledge descending deep into the earth, our storage banks of crystal and stone opening to us now. The Earth memory and wisdom feeding through our cells and aligning us to the magnetic grids of the earth, our navigation systems coming on line. We will know where each of our soul kin is located we will be placed at intervals so we may all connect in groups and then bridge the distance. We are wiring our own network of communication far more advanced than current technology. We can channel and receive from each other on a soul level as well as reading the DNA crystalline data bases and Earth wisdom. This network is being put in place and many of us a being told to go to certain locations to connect. This is all planned and pre designed by our soul selves and our Soul kin groups.

As the weaving continues and the fractals spiral into place. We are feeling a lose of time, balance and coherence in our surrounding environment. This is what it feel like when you bend time and space to pull the Earth into her highest evolutionary path. The winding of wormholes and the sealing of energy fragments. We are are the elders of a future that is being written now. We will have to live right through this war to come to a place of freedom.

Run away with me, the escapism trap

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Wounded Masculine: Run away with me.
It is the ultimate seduction. It says you are the single most important thing to me. I would leave everything and everyone behind for you. We can start a new life together. We can be free.

Wounded Feminine: Don’t leave me behind.
It’s in our genes, our blood, our memory banks. Every time the men have gone away to war and never come home, and the women have had to carry the burden alone. Now when Daddy or Husband goes away for work it may as well be war, he may as well be going to his death.

The Shadow of escapism wounded masculine and feminine:
Fleeing from the pain and the problems. Living on the run because your shadows will hunt you down if you stand still. You can hit the road, swallow some pills, wrap your body around another. There are so many ways to evade your pain. Keeping your mind busy with stimulation and experience. Or numbing yourself until you can’t feel a thing. Killing yourself slowly until you don’t even remember your own name.

But where does this pain come from?

The Wound of Separation:
Entering this world of duality. Entering the human form. The single mind splitting away from unity consciousness. “I drop to my knees with the pain. I remember the original separation from my soul family as a tearing of my flesh. As if my greater body is being torn apart.” https://kilandril.com/2021/01/13/change-will-come-light-language-vision/

How do we heal this wound? Remembering our Connection. Holding our own and opening our hearts.

The Awakened Masculine: When “run away with me” evolves. Walk beside me as my equal and we will forge a new path of evolution not only for ourselves but for the entire human species. I will teach, protect, hold and respect you.

The Awakened Feminine: When “don’t leave me behind” evolves. I know my value as your equal, I will walk beside you. I am here to guide us in the direction of our expanded awareness and remembrance of earth wisdom. I will advise, inspire, nurture and create balance.

We are so powerful when we come together with our Tribe. We are so powerful when we come into unity within. There are so many traps laid in the earth grids right now. Be nimble, be wise and work together to remember who you are. Infinite being of light I call to you now to awaken.

Warriors of the Light

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They aren’t what you think they are. You won’t see our Warriors of the Light as luminous beings whole and correct within a society that is damaged. They are a product of our society, they are damaged and real, they have scars and marks all over their bodies. They are here in this matrix to smash it apart. To tear down the walls that create the prison you are living in. Don’t judge them harshly, open your eyes and see their LIGHT. The soul who has sacrificed their place in heaven to be here on Earth in the hell realms with you. While you are evolving at a natural pace they are forced in the physical to undergo unbearable pain and torment. It isn’t their natural state to be in a body, it isn’t their natural state to be living on a prison planet. They are here with purpose and with a mission. If you aren’t here to help them just get out of their way.

There are many who walk among us who are here to create great change. I am blessed (or cursed) with the ability to SEE them. They rarely if ever see me and I am unable to reach many of them. I can see their soul being tortured in this limited reality and I want to help. But you can’t walk up to a stranger and tell them they have an entire battalion of light warriors walking behind them….. That they are leading a revolution in consciousness….. That if all they can do is stay alive today, that is all they need to do because just their energy being on the Earth right now is holding a frequency that is keeping the planet from spinning out of control into chaos. No… you can’t say that to a stranger. However. Every so often, a Soul Brother will see me. That is when I feel blessed. And every so often a Soul Brother will hear me. That is the real game changer.

I am a conduit for information to come in from higher realms. I speak truth and I speak from a love frequency. When people are open to receiving, it comes through me and I get to see the story too. I learn so much from translating this energy for people. It’s what I love.

Often It will begin with a dream. I will be shown a person, their energy, their purpose. I might not even know them yet. Then I will be asked in the dream state to clear energy for them, to give support to them. That they are doing something important in the higher realms to correct the energy on Earth. This is one story of a Soul Brother who was open to see and hear. I was seeing visions for him well before he asked me to Journey on his behalf and it was a relief to share that information with him, see him integrate it and recalibrate his life moving forwards.


To all the Warriors of Light I know what you have been through to get to where you are now, and I know that people can’t see it. So there will be no regard

I know what it takes, how much strength and purpose must run through you to have the determination in the face of absolute heart break to stick to your convictions. When you stand face to face with those you love and tell them you are leaving to carve out a new path.

I know that you let everything that you had built until this day crumble at your feet because you know it has no worth where you are going, and it will slow you down. As you cut these things away from your life, you bleed from the loss.

I know how many trials you have been through, how much your body has twisted in pain and how many nightmares you have torn your way through just to be here still

I am here to witness you, I am here to tell you that it is going to be worth it, you are creating great ripples of change across the world and the universe.

Together we are stepping into a new reality where the only rules that apply will be those fundamental universal principles that govern us all.


~In this video you will see the FULL Shamanic experience through a Spirit Journey with Kilandril. You will hear every word and exploration of a personal spirit journey. It is raw & uncensored.

Evolving understanding of Truth

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Written by Michelle Smyth at the age of 18.

This piece of writing has re emerged from the archives, it wants to be read.

This is a seed and only a beginning of the evolution that will occur. 

The end of a cycle is coming and we all better brace ourselves. There is a lot of talk about what is going to happen. Whether only the 144,000 chosen ones will survive or that everyone will rise in consciousness or some other unforeseen outcome will ensue. Whatever is coming, we are faced with the same problem. People have stopped listening to the Earth. We no longer allow her to guide us. She is all powerful and has a greater understanding of what is. We will need her to help us navigate our way through what lies ahead. 

From my instinctive human perspective these are the things I see coming for us:

There will be a shift in consciousness, and it will be to a higher place. A lot of people will be lost, killed, or removed from the current equation. Not because they have been bad, but because they are not ready to accept and embrace the new cycle. Each person has their own path, and that path is a cycle of growth and understanding. When someone can no longer travel along their path or they have completed their path, they complete themselves and leave this existence and they enter their own ether.

Mother Earth herself will change drastically, she will awaken from her current subtle slumber and itch and scratch until she is again happy with her current state of being. She has been here from the beginning, the true eternal mother and protector, she has given and taken life and has always guided us along our own spirit paths. We must strive to find harmony with Mother Earth, for without her there would be no experience.

Before we came here from the stars, in our spiritual forms we found that we had a connection with this planet that we called Earth. By manifesting ourselves into certain forms we discovered that we had the ability to exist on Earth and experience in condensed physical form what it is to feel pain, loss, ecstasy, and joy. In our spirit forms we made the decision to bind ourselves to this planet. To condense into physical being. To affect others and our environment. We knew what would occur once we felt what it is like to have power over others. To be in a physical form that could have control over another physical being. We knew that a lot of problems would occur, and we knew that we could potentially destroy ourselves. But we also knew that was the process we had to go through in order to develop respect for life and Mother Earth.

The thing we were not prepared for was the effect that the environment of Earth and the physical realm would have on us. In binding ourselves to the Earth we had to remove the memory of the heightened spiritual truth that we had already reached, for if we retained that knowledge on Earth, we would not be able to appreciate the true essence of the physical and the emotions that came with that. We were given the seed of awareness in our incarnated forms that there is more to the universe than just the physical and what we could see, but this awareness was only to be activated gradually for we needed to go through the process of experience, error, and discovery to be able to hold a balance with the physical and the spiritual. When the time comes, then we will be able to activate the universal truth that we already possess.

It is through the searching and yearning for more that triggers the activation of truth and the awareness that a balance must be found to keep stability on all levels. All people develop at different stages, for everyone has their own spiritual path to travel. We must respect the fact that we are all different and we cannot pass judgement on someone who’s development is at a different pace than ours.

There is more than just one race of star beings that exist and when the first race chose earth, others followed. One of the first star races that manifested went to Atlantis. They were able to develop faster both physically and spiritually as at that time Mother Earth was more active, thus the Atlantean’s managed to retain the ability to understand the Earth as a conscious being when they came into the physical. Because of this advanced understanding Atlanteans appeared as a threat to other nations as they were considered superior. As new star nations manifested themselves into the dense 3D realm on Earth the Atlantean’s dispersed themselves and cloaked themselves giving them the ability to exist anonymous and slowly activate within others the increased ability to understand aspects of the universal truths. 

Many nations have come to earth possessing different gifts and abilities, as Mother Gaia desired. The Mayans had great understanding of energy and they had the ability to understand how the universe and the stars worked. When they reached evolution capacity, they too dispersed amongst the populace slowly activating that innate knowledge amongst the different nations. Mother Gaia knew that for all the star nations to exist in harmony together in the physical, each person had to be different in many aspects both physically and mentally. That way we develop the desire to learn from each other. Each person having a personal truth and understanding. Then we develop the desire to come together in unity and together form one truth, the universal truth that we once knew. Though when we knew it in the beginning it was only knowledge, it was not experienced as a truth, and that is why Earth as a haven for connection was chosen. It must be understood that Mother Gaia was not forced into this union, she held the physical and spiritual truth within her from the beginning and knew that by sharing herself with us and guiding us we would be able to keep this universe of ours in a heightened beautiful existence.

All the time, new star nations are forming and searching for the physical truths that we now are experiencing. It is profound how greatly one can be changed by a single experience. Since we are bound as humans in the physical at this point in our journey, we are subject to the environment and are changed and affected by many different elements. These elements are not always wholly good, for in experience itself there must be a balance between the negative and the positive. If we are at a point in our cycle when we are faced with negative energies, we will often find ourselves giving into them and thus we start projecting negative energy onto others and if that energy is fed then it grows, and we will see that the whole Earth cycle can be disrupted and warped. These occurrences have happened often and are triggered by the need to control and be in a place of power. When this kind of thing occurs, Mother Earth steps in, as well as the onlooking star nations, and they work together to send a bigger guide for our evolution in physical form to inspire and direct the masses to the true path. Though often as a race we are then subject to fear of ‘that which we don’t understand’ and we do not see or acknowledge the sign, or we unintendedly alter the message given by the guide and we are then shifted from the path in another direction.

Mother Earth is made completely of energy, and she has always been energy. Scientists are in the belief that they know how the Earth evolved and how we came to be, and in many ways, they are correct, but they fail to see that the consciousness of Mother Earth has always been here.

It is my belief that this galaxy that we live in was once one huge star, and it contained its own race of star people, and this star’s energy built to an extreme and it broke apart, In the intense energy force that split up the star the central core of the star held its place in the universe and an energy vortex was created around it and inside it. The core turned itself into a small star to contain this energy. This powerful vortex held in it the other pieces of the star and spun them at such a heightened speed that they too found their place in the energy vortex of what is now the Sun. They became the balanced physical of the sphere which holds a centre of pure energy, knowledge, and truth. They now circle the central sun of the original star from which we all expand and have developed their own different physical elements due to the factors of time and change. Mother Earth herself had to experience extreme physical transformation through her connection to the making of the universe.

In time, she has created for herself an organic surface which is completely part of her. Here she has found the perfect place for her original star people to have their physical experience and expression. Although she was all loving and wise, she did not know and could not know what would happen when she and the star nations agreed to bind themselves together in a physical realm. We as people, in our bound mental states have failed to respect our Mother and failed to understand what a privilege it is to be here with her. We have made many mistakes in the past which have triggered an uproar from Mother Earth. She has shaken us, crushed us, burnt us, drowned us, and swallowed us in extreme ways to try to get her messages through our dense awareness. Then we have had to return to her with new understandings and have had to try to reach the point when we can find the universal balance of the physical and the spiritual. Within each generation Mother Earth awakens a few select people to new understandings and awareness. These people are our guides, our teachers, our visionaries, and our muses. If she activated these understandings within all of us at once, we would have no need to come together and find unity, we would not walk our own path of evolution but hers. The potential for truth is within all, it is up to us personally to assist others in the activation of that truth and to look around us and to listen to Mother Earth when she is constantly guiding us to the activation points.

Together we can connect, grow, expand, feel, love, and live. Together we are One.

The Shadows we have spawned

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The Earth was a biological plane of existence. Plants, animals, minerals and elements lived here. Until we came. We were high dimensional beings who wanted to know what it was to live in form. Light, living and breathing in an organic body. The Earth was too dense for us to live as light in our energy bodies so we devolved into matter. Our high frequency light vibration slowing to become solid as skin, bones, and blood. Our energy stilling as senses, of taste, touch, smell, sight and hearing.

We were welcomed and held by the Earth, her soft soil caressing the souls of our feet and it was magnificent. But there was a price to pay for this huge intrusion into her Earthly realm. As we descended into form much of our light was ejected. As in our human form we have limited capacity vessels. It drifted from us as energy and became distorted in an attempt to create balance in this realm of duality where there is day and night, life and death. This other part of us became shadow as we were light.

And so our shadow formed personality as we did. It formed ideas and had endeavours. However, we were of the light and so we could create, our shadow could only take creation and invert it. And that is the way it has gone on for eons. As we were held both, by the Earth, our mother the one who gifted us our bodies of bone and blood, microbes and flora. And by our Father the Source, creator of all, infinite being of light. Our shadowy siblings clung to the night, siphoning off energy from our creations and etching out parcels of space in dead matter of other creatures bodies and pieces of land that had been corrupted.

As we were free to connect with light and source energy, to endlessly create and be inspired our shadows were always fed. As we elevated ourselves again reaching back to higher realms of enlightenment and refining our earthly vessels to hold ever more light. The shadow festered, becoming insatiable. The higher our light the lower the depravity of the shadow.

And now here we are, at this time of remembering. Where we have brought ourselves to the edge of evolution. The human species, an amalgamation of the earth and the heavens. Having to acknowledge the shadow is a spawn of our light and our desire to learn and grow. The shadow that has hunted us and been the impetus for our re union with divinity. We can only reach our full capacity now by swallowing this shadow, ingesting all of the horror and decay. Feeling the memories merge into our strands of DNA. Having the will to live through it all, remain in this body, infuse ourselves with solar light to burn away all of the detritus. And finally become whole again. Standing fully in our divine right as sovereign beings and as children of the Earth.

This transition is part of a much grander scheme to elevate the Earth into her magnificence as she swallows and transforms the shadows that she has spawned through her cycle of devolution and is being re graced into the starry heavens where she belongs with her brothers and sisters of the light.