I dance to the beat of the drum and I step into the vision. I am standing on a large golden disc with symbols all over it. I see the Earth below, it is completely barren. I reach up to the sky and I draw down white liquid light as life force. I am filled with the light and enclosed in an orb. I begin faceting the orb by smashing my feet into the disc below me to break off fragments. When the orb is completely faceted it shines even more radiantly. I step onto the Earth and I hit the ground hard with my feet, breaking the ground open beneath me. I strike the ground over and over with my feet, cracking the Earth open until it opens deep into the ground. I allow the white liquid life force to flow through me and into the Earth pouring down into the cracks and forming mycelium like roots. As I beat the ground beneath my feet and crack open the Earth I awaken the Earth spirits.
They rise up from the ground in a line, facing me, angry at my attack on the Earth. They are baked from clay, ochre coloured bodies and white faces. I extend my energy towards them to let them see that I am here to heal, not damage the Earth. They recieve my energy as white liquid light and then they turn to face the other angered spirits of the earth. I see the Water spirits rise up and communicate with the Earth spirits then they receive the healing light and turn. Waves and waves of these spirits rise then receive and turn until there are thousands of lines of spirits in front of me infused with the life force light. We continue in this way with me beating the Earth with my feet and them passing the light forwards line by line. The cracking of the Earth sounds like thunder and as we build the energy together there is an electric charge building also. A storm is coming. Rain starts to fall and the droplets create ripples across the energy of the orbs, now around each spirit of the Earth. The ripples collide into each other and create a crossing pattern, the weaving of the energy is strengthened by the ripples moving like sound across the entire Earth.
When the entire Earth is covered by the lines of spirits wrapped in light orbs slowly faceting. I breathe in the light, charge up my body and all of the orbs with Earth spirits allow the energy to move through them into the Earth like roots then I let the energy out with a breath and branches grow from the top of the energy orbs. All of the other orbs grow branches too. They bloom with soft pink blossoms. A beautiful white light forest covers the Earth. My tree is over all the others like a great canopy of protection. I breathe and build the energy until it rises and all of the trees grow until the blooming branches of my canopy stretch into the cool reaches of space. Many stars shine above us and many stars fall down as gifts for the Earth. Diamonds falling into the open blooms. The petals of the flowers close tightly around the diamonds and a sacred fruit is formed. Red shiny apples fall to the ground beneath the trees.
I release the building energy and I relax back into the tree then step out of the tree into the forest. There the floor of the forest is covered in red apples. I pick one up to take a bite and the sweet fruit electrifies my mind with sight and my body is charged with a current that connects the air around me. Hexagonal fractals branch out from me with each bite. Building reconnection with the All. I see the other Earth spirits step out from their trees begin to bite into the apples and connect with me and the All. Then everything begins to grow. The moss covers the ground, the mushrooms emerge, flowers bloom. I try a leaf from the tree. I place it on my tongue and the script rolls down my body like parchment. Written word rolling over me infusing into me. Knowledge being received.
I walk from the forest and I see the gaps in the Earth where I had broken it open are filled with crystal formations. The wise crystalline beings step forth, they begin to raise mountains and carve beaches and lakes. I sit beside the beach of sand and stone and I weep tears of joy to see life return in such abundance. The ocean is filled with my salty tears and waves come rolling in and crash on the shore. I am at peace as the Earth is regenerated to its forgotten glory.
As I dance to the deep pulsing beats I go into trance. I step out of my body and I see the desert, sand dancing all around me to the vibrations of the drums. It is night and as I step out further and I see a group of Arabian women dressed in deep reds with sheer silk face coverings and dark kohl design around their eyes. They dance to the beat with me, then they circle around me and they sing with high frequency earth tremoring tones. The sound is dizzying and I am led by them to an underground chamber. Where I am greeted by the Intuitive warrior, I know him, he holds a large Persian Sword. He walks towards me and places the point of the sword into the sand at my feet as a symbol of fealty. I tell him I can’t lead, I don’t know the way. He says that if we walk together we will both see. A connection has been made and as he walks my feet move with his. I stand behind him, but I see the way ahead and so he sees it also. We are linked.
He leads us out of the chamber following my instinctual and visual guidance. As we come out under the night sky I look up to the stars. My body arching backwards. The constellations in my eyes lock with the constellations of the stars. Then multiple constellations are drawn out of the sky and aspects of myself and the Intuitive Warrior are pulled down to Earth from lives we were living in the stars. These aspects of us are now drawn here to join with us, enhance us, expand us. My aspects stand either side of me, they look like me, they are me. They have different experiences, they have different knowledge. They stand with me and we sway to the music as my heart beat comes into sync with theirs and we merge into one. The etheric layers of me are electric and colourful like oil on water as the dissimilar energy meets and merges. I feel alive but also very tired. Like all of the cumulative years of my many lives has hit me like aging hundreds of years all at once.
After we have both merged the aspects of ourselves from distant constellations. We are met by two other warriors, one is Head and Heart strong the other is Fluid, the Intuitive warrior takes his sword and I see it has ancient Arabic writing alive on it with fire. He brands the Head and Heart strong warrior across the chest leaving writing on his body like a tattoo. He brands the Fluid Warrior on the upper right arm leaving the written text. They all stand opposite me in the formation of an arrow. The ancient text starts to come alive like fire wire. It moves from them to me. Long lines of fire wire moving through my body and it burns hot. Rewiring ancient memories of them with me in past lives. As allies, as kin. As one. As my body is awakening with memories my spine becomes activated and grows huge within my body, each disc becomes a temple that expands and sets itself down on the Earth. The temples are carved from stone and they surround us in a circle.
Then my blood brothers come to stand either side of me and behind me. Green alive lines of energy move through me and through them cooling and protecting. I wrap it all around them and cover their skin in ivy leaves so they can’t be seen, a camouflage. I shield them as they stand in an arrow formation behind me.
After the rewiring has completed I am very tired but we have to keep following the path that is unfolding visually now like electric light in the dark of night. We see our way ahead as we all stand together. The formation shifts as I am tired. The Head and Heart warrior carries me and the Intuitive Warrior and Fluid warrior walk ahead. My body is limp but I am speaking as we walk. With my eyes closed I am still guiding us. I ask the Intuitive warrior why they need me to see. He says because a woman has a greater capacity for information, memory and codes than a man does. That is why we are often allies. He says you can see the way ahead and I have immense focus so I can forge the path, no distractions no obstacles, nothing can stop me.
As we are walking in formation like this more allies join us. Light hearted and free spirited they joke and jest and they tell me stories, reminding me of times long ago when we were free to roam the Earth as children of the universe. We were giants, we were spirited and whole beings. Like a band of merry travellers we weave our way through the memories and unlock many temples on the earth that came from the stars for people to bring facets of themselves home to them. Syncing their heart beats and aligning with their fullness as divine and alive beings of the earth and the stars.
He was a wild boy and I was a wild girl too. We were never meant to live a life of captivity, traps were everywhere, so we ran. Into the forest and far away. I thought they would never catch us. But one day they did. I slowed him down and they baited him, the wolf. They caught him and they took him from me. I got away, but only barely, the scars still show. I skulked in the shadows, black panther, comoflagued, hidden, alone.
I couldn’t stay hidden forever. There was a light growing inside of me. A gift from the wolf. A rising star so bright it burnt through all of the shadows and camouflage. A ball of fire that burnt through my very being, a sun that shone within me, illuminating everything. Searing the skin from my blackened body, it burst forth. The pain was unimaginable. Through the fire and fury I became the Phoenix.
On the fiery wings of the Phoenix I fly high above the chaos and the lies. I see the traps and distorted timelines. Splitting and falling away. The dead are walking among us now. We will be the living. We will be those who rise after humanity has fallen to ashes. As we always have.
~In Memory of my Son Phoenix 08.08.15 — 888—24—6—333333—18—9— As above so below
Past life memories are coming back to us now. If not naturally then with assistance. Why is this so important? Because we need to know where we have come from to know where we are going. Whether this is memory in your blood from your ancestors or memories in your soul from past incarnations. All of this knowledge is accessible now. There is a struggle happening. Some forces seek to hide the knowledge from us so we remain small and others are protecting the knowledge so we may find it.
This is a past life memory shared with me of a warrior protecting the kings list which has the records of the Kings descended from heaven who each reigned for thousands of years. This carved stone text is a record showing human lifespans that have shrunk from thousands of years to hundreds, to barely a hundred.
~We cross the bridge into a past life. We are in Mesopotamia. I see the warrior standing with bare legs, wild hair, feet on dusty, dry earth. He wears a gauntlet of leather, brass and steel and is stained with the dust from many days of hard journey through the desert. It is a vast space with only a few sparse stands of trees. He and his band of travellers carry something very precious, ancient and dangerous in the wrong hands. They guard it well day and night. Stopping to make camp in the empty desert. At night they stand vigil and watch the night pass as others sleep.
The warrior stoic in his mind and body, knows the charge he has been given, he knows the consequences if they fail. A terror will be unleashed on the Earth that no man would survive. So the few that must fall to guard this secret is a small price to pay in comparison. He pays dearly for it though, every time a man falls under his protection a piece of him dies inside. He knows the toll of this work will one day take him to an early grave, he sees his mentor on his way there now. Strung out under the pressure of responsibility he drinks himself to numbness and dies a little inside every day so he may live one more mission. He has become hardened and calloused from this work.
They pick up where they left off, one more day’s walk until they reach their destination. The wagon strains on the dry earth under the immense weight of the sacred box within. They see the earth walls and the opening into the temple beneath the earth. The hired labour take the great chest from the wagon and carry it into the tomb. The warrior’s follow them silently and dispatch them with expert precision. Dead before they hit the ground. No inkling of what was coming. It’s better this way. They die with honour and have been given a pass to the afterlife because of their contribution to this sacred mission. They are buried in a place of prominence within the underground temple.
Returning to their lives undercover as ordinary citizens the warriors mix with the upper class, those in high places and the common folk in the marketplace to keep a finger on the pulse of information moving through the gossip circles. The bought and paid for secrets and fabricated stories are reaching almost a mythical status now.
We see the warrior at home with his family a wife and son, they are part of his cover, his mind always on his mission, it is what he was born to do and he will die for his cause one day, if he does live on he will become one of the council but few ever make it that far. And who would want to sit upon a seat that carries such burden. He surely never wants his son to suffer the life he has lived and prays that one day he will walk another path. Take his mother and cross the sea to safety. Build a new life and take his lineage in another direction. One of peace, not this silent war that wages under the surface.
If the sacred texts, (the cuniform tablets of the kings list) can be secured into the temples at their designated locations all will be right and good for the future and the people will be free from tyranny.
As we are drawn back to ourselves as whole beings of divine light. We begin to find our kin, those of our soul blood. Our crystalline DNA fractals merging and meeting with others we have known before. In other bodies in other times. Our divine soul knowns no time and our crystalline DNA knows no difference between one body or another. We are being drawn back together, joining to make our majesty known. As our missions take place on Earth. We are asked now to get to our starting positions.
This awakening and reconnection with our Kin is happening quickly and the integration time we are allowed is minimal. Fast remembering is coming in. Lives lived with our kin as lovers, brothers, fathers, mothers. The relationship often just a way to place us together on Earth. As our memories return, so too do our bonds. The over lapping and interlacing of experience to awaken our connection. The human body has a soul lineage and a blood lineage. Now the Soul lineage is being awoken the blood lineage become less important. A person you have known for one lifetime feels insignificant next to someone you have known for eons. Threading in and out of incarnations together. Working on missions that bridge many life times. Keeping the soul lineage alive within the blood lineage. Incarnating in the same blood lines to build the knowledge base deeper and deeper into the bones and blood. The instinct the intuition. The need to find each other. The hunt to find each other. Closing in now. Getting closer. Full activation of sight, memory and wisdom keys to unlock what we know as a group of kindred souls.
The memories hold keys but are painful to witness. The flashes of lives lived, bodies held and let go of. The mind we had, the emotions, the thoughts and the pain. Lessons integrating across many timelines now. The masculine and feminine making peace as we remember living as both man and woman. The strengths and roles of each appreciated and understood as we have lived both. The forgiveness and compassion flowing through from our ancestors way back.
Our body, our vessel on the Earth plane creates a great energy field around it. The knowledge bank we hold in our DNA crystallises as our expanded awareness grows and we each reach our far beyond our physical body to connect these bridges of light. Fractals unfolding and weaving together as information and memory is shared with our kin. Not all of this needs to run through our human mind so much is done on a soul level. As we walk between these bridges we are building we know so much more than one mind can hold at any time. Our data bases are growing our knowledge descending deep into the earth, our storage banks of crystal and stone opening to us now. The Earth memory and wisdom feeding through our cells and aligning us to the magnetic grids of the earth, our navigation systems coming on line. We will know where each of our soul kin is located we will be placed at intervals so we may all connect in groups and then bridge the distance. We are wiring our own network of communication far more advanced than current technology. We can channel and receive from each other on a soul level as well as reading the DNA crystalline data bases and Earth wisdom. This network is being put in place and many of us a being told to go to certain locations to connect. This is all planned and pre designed by our soul selves and our Soul kin groups.
As the weaving continues and the fractals spiral into place. We are feeling a lose of time, balance and coherence in our surrounding environment. This is what it feel like when you bend time and space to pull the Earth into her highest evolutionary path. The winding of wormholes and the sealing of energy fragments. We are are the elders of a future that is being written now. We will have to live right through this war to come to a place of freedom.
Wounded Masculine: Run away with me. It is the ultimate seduction. It says you are the single most important thing to me. I would leave everything and everyone behind for you. We can start a new life together. We can be free.
Wounded Feminine: Don’t leave me behind. It’s in our genes, our blood, our memory banks. Every time the men have gone away to war and never come home, and the women have had to carry the burden alone. Now when Daddy or Husband goes away for work it may as well be war, he may as well be going to his death.
The Shadow of escapism wounded masculine and feminine: Fleeing from the pain and the problems. Living on the run because your shadows will hunt you down if you stand still. You can hit the road, swallow some pills, wrap your body around another. There are so many ways to evade your pain. Keeping your mind busy with stimulation and experience. Or numbing yourself until you can’t feel a thing. Killing yourself slowly until you don’t even remember your own name.
But where does this pain come from?
The Wound of Separation: Entering this world of duality. Entering the human form. The single mind splitting away from unity consciousness. “I drop to my knees with the pain. I remember the original separation from my soul family as a tearing of my flesh. As if my greater body is being torn apart.” https://kilandril.com/2021/01/13/change-will-come-light-language-vision/
How do we heal this wound? Remembering our Connection. Holding our own and opening our hearts.
The Awakened Masculine: When “run away with me” evolves. Walk beside me as my equal and we will forge a new path of evolution not only for ourselves but for the entire human species. I will teach, protect, hold and respect you.
The Awakened Feminine: When “don’t leave me behind” evolves. I know my value as your equal, I will walk beside you. I am here to guide us in the direction of our expanded awareness and remembrance of earth wisdom. I will advise, inspire, nurture and create balance.
We are so powerful when we come together with our Tribe. We are so powerful when we come into unity within. There are so many traps laid in the earth grids right now. Be nimble, be wise and work together to remember who you are. Infinite being of light I call to you now to awaken.
This piece of writing has re emerged from the archives, it wants to be read.
This is a seed and only a beginning of the evolution that will occur.
The end of a cycle is coming and we all better brace ourselves. There is a lot of talk about what is going to happen. Whether only the 144,000 chosen ones will survive or that everyone will rise in consciousness or some other unforeseen outcome will ensue. Whatever is coming, we are faced with the same problem. People have stopped listening to the Earth. We no longer allow her to guide us. She is all powerful and has a greater understanding of what is. We will need her to help us navigate our way through what lies ahead.
From my instinctive human perspective these are the things I see coming for us:
There will be a shift in consciousness, and it will be to a higher place. A lot of people will be lost, killed, or removed from the current equation. Not because they have been bad, but because they are not ready to accept and embrace the new cycle. Each person has their own path, and that path is a cycle of growth and understanding. When someone can no longer travel along their path or they have completed their path, they complete themselves and leave this existence and they enter their own ether.
Mother Earth herself will change drastically, she will awaken from her current subtle slumber and itch and scratch until she is again happy with her current state of being. She has been here from the beginning, the true eternal mother and protector, she has given and taken life and has always guided us along our own spirit paths. We must strive to find harmony with Mother Earth, for without her there would be no experience.
Before we came here from the stars, in our spiritual forms we found that we had a connection with this planet that we called Earth. By manifesting ourselves into certain forms we discovered that we had the ability to exist on Earth and experience in condensed physical form what it is to feel pain, loss, ecstasy, and joy. In our spirit forms we made the decision to bind ourselves to this planet. To condense into physical being. To affect others and our environment. We knew what would occur once we felt what it is like to have power over others. To be in a physical form that could have control over another physical being. We knew that a lot of problems would occur, and we knew that we could potentially destroy ourselves. But we also knew that was the process we had to go through in order to develop respect for life and Mother Earth.
The thing we were not prepared for was the effect that the environment of Earth and the physical realm would have on us. In binding ourselves to the Earth we had to remove the memory of the heightened spiritual truth that we had already reached, for if we retained that knowledge on Earth, we would not be able to appreciate the true essence of the physical and the emotions that came with that. We were given the seed of awareness in our incarnated forms that there is more to the universe than just the physical and what we could see, but this awareness was only to be activated gradually for we needed to go through the process of experience, error, and discovery to be able to hold a balance with the physical and the spiritual. When the time comes, then we will be able to activate the universal truth that we already possess.
It is through the searching and yearning for more that triggers the activation of truth and the awareness that a balance must be found to keep stability on all levels. All people develop at different stages, for everyone has their own spiritual path to travel. We must respect the fact that we are all different and we cannot pass judgement on someone who’s development is at a different pace than ours.
There is more than just one race of star beings that exist and when the first race chose earth, others followed. One of the first star races that manifested went to Atlantis. They were able to develop faster both physically and spiritually as at that time Mother Earth was more active, thus the Atlantean’s managed to retain the ability to understand the Earth as a conscious being when they came into the physical. Because of this advanced understanding Atlanteans appeared as a threat to other nations as they were considered superior. As new star nations manifested themselves into the dense 3D realm on Earth the Atlantean’s dispersed themselves and cloaked themselves giving them the ability to exist anonymous and slowly activate within others the increased ability to understand aspects of the universal truths.
Many nations have come to earth possessing different gifts and abilities, as Mother Gaia desired. The Mayans had great understanding of energy and they had the ability to understand how the universe and the stars worked. When they reached evolution capacity, they too dispersed amongst the populace slowly activating that innate knowledge amongst the different nations. Mother Gaia knew that for all the star nations to exist in harmony together in the physical, each person had to be different in many aspects both physically and mentally. That way we develop the desire to learn from each other. Each person having a personal truth and understanding. Then we develop the desire to come together in unity and together form one truth, the universal truth that we once knew. Though when we knew it in the beginning it was only knowledge, it was not experienced as a truth, and that is why Earth as a haven for connection was chosen. It must be understood that Mother Gaia was not forced into this union, she held the physical and spiritual truth within her from the beginning and knew that by sharing herself with us and guiding us we would be able to keep this universe of ours in a heightened beautiful existence.
All the time, new star nations are forming and searching for the physical truths that we now are experiencing. It is profound how greatly one can be changed by a single experience. Since we are bound as humans in the physical at this point in our journey, we are subject to the environment and are changed and affected by many different elements. These elements are not always wholly good, for in experience itself there must be a balance between the negative and the positive. If we are at a point in our cycle when we are faced with negative energies, we will often find ourselves giving into them and thus we start projecting negative energy onto others and if that energy is fed then it grows, and we will see that the whole Earth cycle can be disrupted and warped. These occurrences have happened often and are triggered by the need to control and be in a place of power. When this kind of thing occurs, Mother Earth steps in, as well as the onlooking star nations, and they work together to send a bigger guide for our evolution in physical form to inspire and direct the masses to the true path. Though often as a race we are then subject to fear of ‘that which we don’t understand’ and we do not see or acknowledge the sign, or we unintendedly alter the message given by the guide and we are then shifted from the path in another direction.
Mother Earth is made completely of energy, and she has always been energy. Scientists are in the belief that they know how the Earth evolved and how we came to be, and in many ways, they are correct, but they fail to see that the consciousness of Mother Earth has always been here.
It is my belief that this galaxy that we live in was once one huge star, and it contained its own race of star people, and this star’s energy built to an extreme and it broke apart, In the intense energy force that split up the star the central core of the star held its place in the universe and an energy vortex was created around it and inside it. The core turned itself into a small star to contain this energy. This powerful vortex held in it the other pieces of the star and spun them at such a heightened speed that they too found their place in the energy vortex of what is now the Sun. They became the balanced physical of the sphere which holds a centre of pure energy, knowledge, and truth. They now circle the central sun of the original star from which we all expand and have developed their own different physical elements due to the factors of time and change. Mother Earth herself had to experience extreme physical transformation through her connection to the making of the universe.
In time, she has created for herself an organic surface which is completely part of her. Here she has found the perfect place for her original star people to have their physical experience and expression. Although she was all loving and wise, she did not know and could not know what would happen when she and the star nations agreed to bind themselves together in a physical realm. We as people, in our bound mental states have failed to respect our Mother and failed to understand what a privilege it is to be here with her. We have made many mistakes in the past which have triggered an uproar from Mother Earth. She has shaken us, crushed us, burnt us, drowned us, and swallowed us in extreme ways to try to get her messages through our dense awareness. Then we have had to return to her with new understandings and have had to try to reach the point when we can find the universal balance of the physical and the spiritual. Within each generation Mother Earth awakens a few select people to new understandings and awareness. These people are our guides, our teachers, our visionaries, and our muses. If she activated these understandings within all of us at once, we would have no need to come together and find unity, we would not walk our own path of evolution but hers. The potential for truth is within all, it is up to us personally to assist others in the activation of that truth and to look around us and to listen to Mother Earth when she is constantly guiding us to the activation points.
Together we can connect, grow, expand, feel, love, and live. Together we are One.
The Earth was a biological plane of existence. Plants, animals, minerals and elements lived here. Until we came. We were high dimensional beings who wanted to know what it was to live in form. Light, living and breathing in an organic body. The Earth was too dense for us to live as light in our energy bodies so we devolved into matter. Our high frequency light vibration slowing to become solid as skin, bones, and blood. Our energy stilling as senses, of taste, touch, smell, sight and hearing.
We were welcomed and held by the Earth, her soft soil caressing the souls of our feet and it was magnificent. But there was a price to pay for this huge intrusion into her Earthly realm. As we descended into form much of our light was ejected. As in our human form we have limited capacity vessels. It drifted from us as energy and became distorted in an attempt to create balance in this realm of duality where there is day and night, life and death. This other part of us became shadow as we were light.
And so our shadow formed personality as we did. It formed ideas and had endeavours. However, we were of the light and so we could create, our shadow could only take creation and invert it. And that is the way it has gone on for eons. As we were held both, by the Earth, our mother the one who gifted us our bodies of bone and blood, microbes and flora. And by our Father the Source, creator of all, infinite being of light. Our shadowy siblings clung to the night, siphoning off energy from our creations and etching out parcels of space in dead matter of other creatures bodies and pieces of land that had been corrupted.
As we were free to connect with light and source energy, to endlessly create and be inspired our shadows were always fed. As we elevated ourselves again reaching back to higher realms of enlightenment and refining our earthly vessels to hold ever more light. The shadow festered, becoming insatiable. The higher our light the lower the depravity of the shadow.
And now here we are, at this time of remembering. Where we have brought ourselves to the edge of evolution. The human species, an amalgamation of the earth and the heavens. Having to acknowledge the shadow is a spawn of our light and our desire to learn and grow. The shadow that has hunted us and been the impetus for our re union with divinity. We can only reach our full capacity now by swallowing this shadow, ingesting all of the horror and decay. Feeling the memories merge into our strands of DNA. Having the will to live through it all, remain in this body, infuse ourselves with solar light to burn away all of the detritus. And finally become whole again. Standing fully in our divine right as sovereign beings and as children of the Earth.
This transition is part of a much grander scheme to elevate the Earth into her magnificence as she swallows and transforms the shadows that she has spawned through her cycle of devolution and is being re graced into the starry heavens where she belongs with her brothers and sisters of the light.